LET IT GO (piss off Elsa, this doesn’t concern you)

As I’ve mentioned before, I’ve always struggled with perfectionism. Everything has to be thought out and well executed to the point of routine. But I’m learning to let that go and wing some things. It’s messier, and a lot more enjoyable I must admit. Like a wonderful Irish car bomb. (Now I’m drooling.) This afternoon we painted just for the fun of it. I started out with a clean cut plan. But then, dropped it and went with it. Honestly, I like this better than what I had planned. 😀 


Anyone else do this kind of stuff?! Do you find it stifles your creativity ever? 




The Importance of Sharing your Art

I’ve been fairly creative my whole life. Growing up my mom was (still is) creative, my cousins were creative; seemingly everyone around me was creative. Somehow I always felt my creativity never measured up to theirs or anyone else’s. The comparisons, the desire for perfection; were the death of my creativity. But the creative mind is not so easily killed. Even in my most mundane of jobs, in an environment that squashed ideas and innovation I had the desire to create. I was not feeling myself unless I knew I could express myself.

Having a desire to create in many fields I had always felt a little overwhelmed. However, last summer had been one of extreme growth for me. I discovered three branches I specifically could define as “me.” Music, Film, and Fashion. Once I narrowed it down to those three, I really felt better, and can even see in my past that those were always in the forefront of my mind. This is a far more tangible goal than answering “I want to do everything.” I found living role models to prove to myself that this is actually possible; not that those are necessary, just a nice boost. 😀

Now, to the sharing. I had never really shared any of my writings, songs, sketches, or ideas with anyone except family and a few friends. Everything was never complete. I couldn’t call anything complete until it was perfect. Eventually my creativity waned and it was a little over a year of absolutely no creation on my part. I was working, eating, sleeping, and that’s it as far as I’m concerned. I have nothing to show for those years except an insatiable drive and desire to create more now than ever before. This is in part due to my sharing my work online.

Being the vice president of a media production organization on my campus has also been an invaluable tool in my learning process. I always knew that if I wanted something I was going to have to do it for myself; however, this organization helped me experience that. I wanted a media and cinema studies committee within this organization; I created it and lead it up until graduation. I wanted a television talk show; I created it, gathered and assembled a team, and produced it. Seemingly I was fine creating and sharing as long as my work wasn’t as personal as something I had been working on solo. I’ve never liked people who defer responsibility or make excuses; yet somehow I had become that person to myself.

A year ago, I finally used my domain I had bought for myself years prior, and dove right in. I started blogging. I shared photos of sweatshirts I had customized, songs I had written and produced, and even started up my YouTube channel with weekly videos. I even did Vlogmas (a vlog every day from December 1 – December 25) after hearing about it on the 1st of December. While viewership may not have been as high as my weekly videos, I was very happy doing these vlogs. It was a chance for me to learn, gain more experience in filming and editing, and see what my audience enjoys the most. It also helped me to further let go of the idea of perfection. I had daily deadlines. I needed to be accountable with myself and my audience. I may not be beamingly proud of all of the vlogs, but I am proud that I did it. I made a goal for production and stuck to it. I let go of perfectionism.

The interaction I’ve had online with others since sharing my work has become one of my favorite things about sharing. Discussing music, film, and/or fashion truly gives me a high. These discussions and my own acceptance of perfection being unattainable have caused my own creativity to skyrocket. I’m now creating more than ever before in my life and I feel like I’m finally on the right track. I’ve also shared more in this past semester than I have in my life leading up to that point. Honestly, even while typing this I’m getting a rush and this is merely scratching the surface.

While I can only speak for myself, I implore you to challenge yourself to create and share more. See what happens! Let me know what drives you by commenting below, tweeting at me, or Facebook! I am excited to hear about what motivates and inspires others!

“A ship in a harbor is safe, but that is not what a ship is built for.” – John A. Shedd.



Journal Entry: Inspiration is Everywhere; and Fall is Here!

One of my favorite things to do is to people watch.  So many unique stories, so many unique fashions, so many unique beings.  I also enjoy being a perpetual tourist.  Too often I can take for granted the everyday things I may pass on the street or in my commute; but how magical and exciting to try and remain fresh?!  With the changing seasons it is sometimes a nice reminder of the change that is constant around us and within us, it’s so exciting!

Photo on 2013-09-06 at 21.29
Sherry & I WERK

This past weekend I really started diving in on some collaborative efforts with Sherry.  We began on some covers for practice together and getting used to our creative processes and how they mesh.  I’m very excited to be working with her and to bring some more musick and videos to you!

Photo Oct 05, 4 03 06 PM
My first pad controller!

I also recently got a new pad controller; my first one!  So far I love it, and I haven’t even begun to understand its potential.  I’ll be learning some of that this week and seeing what new things I can come up with!

See you soon!


Taste Test

Consider this a taste test of what’s to come from my fashion side, as of now.  As with anybody else, I am always changing, growing, and learning in my style and tastes.  My current taste in fashion ranges from street (and this) to formal and any imaginable mix in-between.  Now seems to be a very diverse and fun time for fashion!

With a wide range of color choices between the two, bright contrasting colors or dark monochromatism, I typically like to spark up a monochromatic outfit with either edgy pieces or a splash of color.   Mixing things that aren’t usually grouped together in a cohesive image are other ways I express my multifaceted self.  Just because someone thinks a Clark Bushacre 2 boot is “hipster” doesn’t mean it can’t also be accessorized with a hip/sporty flat bill.  Never let labels limit.  Fashion should be fun!  To quote my friend Emily Knezz, “I think fashion should know no rules; colors, patterns, whatever, it don’t matter. If you like it, wear it. When you don’t care about the rules, there’s a lot more options, and it’s a lot more fun.”  I could not agree more.

Look at Mademoiselle Yulia rocking heels, patterned leggings, an oversized tee, a varsity jacket, bandana, and flat bill.  If we broke this down into each piece representing a certain style we would have at least three different styles that some wouldn’t dream of mixing together.  Heels are a woman’s best friend as a classy, sexy, and elegant style would suggest.  Bring in the varsity jacket (prep/jock), the hat & bandana combo (street/urban), & leggings (chic) and we’ve got some eye candy of a fashion cocktail.

That all being said, I think this gives a very generalized (and small) piece of what is to come from my fashion posts.  So stick around and get ready to sip some style sangria (or soda!) with me!


PS: Let me know how you like to style yourself or what your favorite outfits are in the comments below!